We didn’t make it to Mass today. I wish I could say this hardly happens, but it’s been a trend this winter. Sickness, exhaustion after late nights at work, forgot to set an alarm and wake up after Mass has begun.
But while I was getting ready to leave this morning (because I really did think we were going to make it this time) I realized I have some pretty strong aversions to “Going to Church” from some deep seeded thoughts that go all the way back to my childhood.
I feel like if I can’t get up at 6:30am, have quiet time, make an amazing breakfast, dress everyone perfectly, and calmly toddle off to church a few hours later it means I have failed God, the church, my children and myself.
I work late nights. Saturday nights especially.
I have to sleep in so I don’t get sick AGAIN.
When I do get up the kids have been up and playing for a while. I bust out a PBJ for my hungry monkeys and call it good for breakfast. On good days I bring out the fruit and make it a balanced meal.
I do not have dresses for my daughter or dress pants for my son. I barely have decent clothing for myself at this point.
I don’t want these things to hold me back from my duty to worship God. But I feel like they are. I am hesitant to go knowing I haven’t done it “right”.
But that’s not what it is, is it. I am not there to be a put together mom with perfectly calm children every week. I am not there for me. I am there for God.
The little lady was born 1 day past her due date. Daddy spent all day Christmas day begging me to go into labor. He thought it would be fantastic to get to have her on Christmas. I was really trying for Christmas Eve, but it turns out that you can’t force this sort of thing (unless you go get drugs at the hospital…and from what I hear those things are just miserable).
But after impatient days of waiting, we finally got to see our little bundle of love! 40 weeks is a long freakin’ time to have to wait to see your baby. Just so you know.
And brother was SO excited to get to come see his baby:
During the days of inpatient waiting before she was born, I started another crochet project. I only got about half way done before I had her, and having two hands free for anything more than a few minutes to get food on the table is sort of a lost concept around here. So here is the link to the pattern I started. And I am LOVING how it’s turning out. Pretty easy too! I am using grey as the basic color as well, but for the contrasts I picked Rose, Pink, Teal, and Light Blue. I am crazy excited for when it will fit her next fall!
And that’s it for now! Hopefully things settle in soon and I will be able to finish this project, and maybe a few more. For now, I must get back to newborn snuggles, and possibly grab a hand full of food to consume.
My little man LOVES soft fuzzy things. He curls up on the floor and just rubs his face on every soft fuzzy blanket we have. My husband got a Sherpa blanket for Christmas and the little boy promptly absconded with it.
When I went to make him a winter hat and gloves I let him pick out the yarn. Granted I had to oversee this since he was strapped in the cart to prevent complete mayhem in the craft department, but he picked this yarn all the same.
It’s called RedHeart Buttercup yarn, and it was the softest yarn in the store. Also, by far the most annoying yarn in the world to work with. You can’t see stitches, and you certainly can’t follow a pattern with this stuff. But I muddled through and make him a hat, gloves, and socks (his favorite thing in the world right now) for the nasty winter that is to come.
Here he is running around the house with them on.
Just as a little bonus at the end, here is little man helping mama make baby sisters dress
He climbed all the way up on the table by himself to get to crochet hook (which he calls a pen) and set to work without delay.
I have been wanting to do a dinosaur hat for a little girl for a long time now!
One of the first things I got excited about when we found out we were having a girl this time was fulfilling that dream!
And for the BIG photo! (wags eyebrows)
I finally got around to taking a shot of my belly for you all!
29 weeks, for those of you who care =)
Around 7 months for those who don’t!
I feel alright most of the time, but bending over has been harder with this one. Or it could be I am just more aware of it since I am either picking up a toddler, or picking up after a toddler most of the time…
I was definitely less queasy in the first trimester with this one. Hardly any food aversions aside from the ones I normally have =) I do pretty much just want to sit around and eat candy most days though. I fight it, but Halloween season is NOT helping me out. The giant bowl of candy calls to me!
I found this gorgeous baby girl dress ages ago, but it is still the prettiest one I have ever seen (in my humble opinion). It’s the skirt. So fluffy and soft and folding in on it’s self! Eek! I can’t handle the adorableness!
It’s to long to wait for the little model to get here, so my dress won’t be quite as adorable. But you can imagine, right?
It didn’t take me a very long time to make, but I was surprised at how much material goes into the last few rows on the skirt. Half the yarn is taken up by the last 6-8 rows! It’s crazy.
But worth every second! I am very happy with the results.
Now to get the little lady here so she can wear it…
I must once again apologize for an extraordinarily long absence on my part from the blogging world. To be perfectly honest I have been absent from a lot of things. I have spent a lot more time napping with this pregnancy, and when I am not napping I am usually taking care of my little man, or working. There is very little time or energy left over for anything else.
I have been feeling better the last couple weeks. I even started doing the dishes regularly again! Also, cooking and cleaning, and not falling immediately into a sleep of the dead when my son lays down for naps! Who knows when the zombie naps will return, so I have to take advantage while I can. I have been sewing like mad catching up on planned projects for Christmas, birthdays, and (mostly) for my little ones!
Here is a hat I finished this morning after breakfast:
Little man is now saying “hat” very clearly. He also says “hots” which is Drake-speak for socks. But that’s another post.
I am making a hat for baby sister as well, and will be posting that soon!
Brand-spanking-new computer over here! And I am loving it! After nearly three months without one it feels like a whole new world out here. Thank goodness I had my iPod to get me by, but it’s difficult at best to write a short note to someone, and impossible to blog.
One very good thing that came from the time without a larger distraction was how VERY much work I did getting an inventory of Dragons made. I was able to decide on a final pattern, get my production up to speed, and churn out quite a number. I was elated by the progress I made,and the sustainability of the work load.
In other news, my little baby is getting bigger! He is crawling about and climbing stairs, and has even taken a few steps by himself. He jabbers non-stop (he gets that from his mummy), and is perfectly content to play by himself most days. He recently figured out that edges are not just for charging over at full speed (thank the good Lord for self preservation instincts.). Perfect timing since he can get all the way up the stairs on his own…
As I had mentioned before, I spend a great deal of time at the end of last year making all most all of my Christmas presents. I definitely made more this time than I had ever done before, but I felt a lot of pressure on my time, and was pretty stressed out there for a while.
I am missing some of the pictures, but here are a few of the infinity scarves I made:
Once again, not a great photo. They were fun to make, and I used some different stitches than I had previously tried. All in all it was pretty fun!
My goal for next year is to be more prepared and finish things ahead of time so that I can enjoy the season and not be so tired. The lesson for me? Plan ahead.